White Noise.

Is that background noise that you hear when you are on the phone with someone when they don't talk. I heard that today right before she said "I'm done." And it wasn't the best thing in the world obviously. I'm sorry for my 2 days absence, I have been trying to save a relationship, which didn't work. But for now, Daniel is coming to get me so we can hang out. Single again. This is weird. Oh well. I shall have much to get used to within the next few weeks. I'm trading in my iphone, so, that will be a weird adjustment. Right now I am jamming. Later today I will stop by her place to drop off some stuff. But other than that we will continue to be friends and such.

Thanks for all my friends!!!

Peace
-Matt

Everything Mac, Everything Else.

This is the way that Apple organizes the instruction booklets/software that come with any new Apple product. They put all the stuff you need to know about the product you bought into "Everything Mac" and anything in general that is already generally known about the product, or miscellaneous software that is already installed on the product. This is how most of us tend to organize our lives. There are a few things we find most important that we feel need their own category and breaking down of things, and then we feel that there is just everything else that life comes with all one bullet point on the keynote of life. For me, mine would be "Everything Courtney/Friends/Family/Work/Guitar/Phone" and "Everything Else" of course. And that's how today was for me.

My day started off with me waking up once again staring at the clock across from my bed. It read, "10:38". I looked around, wondering what in this dismal place I call my home was worth waking up for...well...I remembered that today was the day Courtney would call and we would finally end our "break". I checked my phone. "Texts: Twitter(4), Daniel Welch (1); Missed Calls: Courtney Cona...(1); Voicemails: Courtney Cona...(1)" Yes!! I was so happy. I listened to the voice mail, definitely not her best, but it was still great to hear her voice. I called her, and we talked for like an hour. Discussing things that went on during the break, and things we planned on doing today, and things we planned on doing in the future. But after our call, I went with my mom shopping again, this time for specific camping things.

We got 2 pairs of swim trunks, 2 pairs of shorts, and a stuffed cow. Well, I got the stuffed cow...it's awesome. And I just realized something random. Why is it, that when we put a period at the end of a sentence, we must capitalize the letter that follows, yet, when we put three periods (aka ellipsis) we don't capitalize the letter after those three times as much? Hm...anyway...moving on. We left the mall and went to Wal Mart, and bought some other camping supplies. I got a snorkeling set, which is awesome and works great. I also got a lock for my locker at the gym and some Coca-Cola pajama pants. Then we went to Sports Authority, always skeptical of when I enter due to when I broke my leg in a sporting goods store in Los Angeles 4 years ago, but no matter. Courtney called me, and we talked while I was getting my water shoes, and such. Then she had to go, and I was on my home.

When I got home, I jumped in the pool and tested my new snorkel equipment, which works amazingly. Then went to shower and go to work at 5:30. Then, while at work, I forgot to give the flowers to the trumpeters for games, which made them most upset, and then I finished working, and went home, and here I am. Courtney and I talked again, breifly, but still no call, which kinda made me feel sad, but I know she loves me!!

Peace
Matt

Surfer of the Year

I have a fake made cover of "Transworld Surf Magazine" where it features me on the cover surfing in South Padre last year during the first camping trip we took out there. To be honest, when I first went, I didn't go with the most optimistic attitude, but this year, for some reason, I am really excited about going. I can't wait, honestly. I guess my sense of adventure is more overpowering than my sense to get eaten alive by mosquitoes. But after one week of no blogging, I will probably have to take a journal or something so I can just transfer my logs to blogs. We shall see.

Today, I woke up around 9:30, showered, ate, and went to McDonalds. I had to be at work extra early today because of the Boy Scout stuff that was going on again. I got to sign autographs and take pictures with the guests, which I really enjoy, so that was fun. Then two shows later, and a draining of energy, I left the castle. While waiting on my ride, I talked to Keri and she was inviting to the Backyard Beach Bar thing, but I couldn't go because my parents had just arrived and it would have been rude to have them leave right as they got there. But I told Keri she could swim at my house and bring her own booze, so it's all good. I wouldn't participate in the boozing as they call it, but I would definitely enjoy a Coca Cola while the festivities were going on.

On the ride back home and then to go out to eat, I learned something that happened yesterday during my cousins party at my house that I am nor particularly happy about. Apparently, my mother had noticed people using my computer, and being the awesome mom that she is, got my dad to get them off of it. I don't know what they were doing, but they are lucky I didn't catch them, or else I would have bored them with cool geeky stuff about the iMac that they probably wouldn't have enjoyed, but I would have! Haha! While at dinner tonight, I had some of the spiciest Jamaican Jerk Chicken I have ever had, but it was delicious. I also had some fried okra and salad. Yum!

And then we came home, and my sister and I got on the computers and such and I tried to write a song, but I just wasn't feeling it tonight. One thing I am super excited about is tomorrow, I might get to see Courtney!! It's been so long, but the wait was worth it for all the self realization that occurred within me and I'm sure what occurred within her as well. I can't wait. But for now, bedtime.

Peace
-Matt

It's never the same thing twice.

Those are the words on the back of my Magnetic Sculpture Kit Box. Because, well, no matter what, you will never be able to duplicate a magnetic sculpture over again no matter how hard you try. I feel these words mean more than just a mantra on the back of a box, I believe they have a bigger meaning about everything in our entire life. Some of these meanings are good, and some are bad, but one thing's for certain, nothing ever is the same again twice.

Yesterday, I received news that I would be going to South Padre for the second time with the Boy Scouts. The last time we went, which was last year around this time, we were visited by hurricane Dolly. That's right, a cloned sheep wiped out our trip and everything down there. But that means this year there will be all new equipment and such. Also, there doesn't seem to be any hurricanes brewing, but according to the weather expert master falconer at work, something could brew up on monday and be strong enough to do the same thing by the following monday, which, surprise, surprise, that's when we will be there. Great. Another hurricane. Hopefully that won't happen and we won't have to be back at 1 or 2 in the morning like last time. This just goes to show, It's never the same thing twice.

Today, however was a non-stop day for me. I woke up at 11:20am and had to leave for work by 11:30am, or so I thought. As we were leaving my house, I checked my phone and saw that my boss called. So I called him back and the line connected with the words, "Are you here?". I said that I wasn't and that I thought we were to be there at noon today since the first show is at 2:00pm. Well, I was right, under normal circumstances, those are the correct times we are to be there on a 2:00pm show, but today, we had some scout groups come and take over the castle so we had to be there at 11:15am. Again, It's never the same thing twice, apparently. Obviously, I got there as fast as I could and got into my guard costume and guarded a large blue curtain while posing for pictures and escorting the falconer around with his large owl. Then, three shows later after non-stop work and a blister brewing on my left ankle, it was finally time to go home. Aching from the day, my father conjured up some light conversation on the ride home and we eventually made it.

Today, I had missed my cousin's graduation party, which was at my house, and I also missed a meal, but everything that happened today seem to resemble that one mantra, It's never the same thing twice. I can't wait for Monday, as Courtney and I will finally be reunited once again. After taking a week to get rid of all my personal issues and even gaining some new ones, I do realize it was good for us in the end, however skeptical of that I was at the start of the break 5 days ago. Tomorrow, I won't be able to make it to church due to the scouting thing again at the castle, so forgive me. Red Eye, my new late night TV show comes on tonight at midnight, so I better be off to catch that.

Peace
-Matt

I woke up with IV's Taped to my Arms...

Those are the first words in my new book that I recieved in the mail today. Gregg Hurwitz's "The Crime Writer". I want to start reading it. Today was alright, nothing exciting, nothing new, nothing amazing. So, there isn't much need to write about it. I do know, however, that I finally get to talk to courtney on monday and I cant wait. I also am going to South Padre on the 19th at 4:00am so it will be cool...no phone or anything. I can't blog the entire time I am there. It's going to be hard. But Don't worry. I will be back, I assure you.

The only reason I used the photo I did in today's blog is because that was in my downloads folder from facebook and I didn't have time to search for another. Time to go read!!

Peace
-Matt

Sunburn.

Sucks. To be quite honest, I haven't had it in a while, and I hate that I have it now. This bad topic brings up many other bad things I have been thinking about within the past several minutes. But other than those things today was pretty cool. Haha. I still haven't woken up past twelve, but hopefully I will soon, or else there will be just nothing to live for. I'm kidding of course, but still...I need to accomplish that.

This day started off at around 10:00am when I woke up and realized I had, once again, nothing to do. So, I decided to figure out a way to publish my new song to facebook, since I use it more than myspace, so I looked around on google and finally found a way to do it, and I think I was really excited because it was all I talked about til 1:00pm. Yay!! If you want to check it out go to: http://www.ilike.com/artist/The+Matt+W.+Project

Seeing as that I am ungrounded, I texted a buddy of mine to come over and swim and eat and stuff. So we swam for a bit, and then ate some Texas Toast and potato salad. Yum. In one word, perfection. Not really, but it sure was good. After that, my friend and I went inside and watched "Merlin" the new series on NBC, and might I say it is pretty darn good. I still need to watch one episode on Hulu to get myself up to date with the current new episode to air on Sunday, but it will be good too.

This morning at like 2:00am, I watched a show recommended by my youth minister at church called "Red-Eye". It's like a political talk show that makes everything really funny with some crude humor and some not so crude humor, but all in all it is a pretty god show. I'll have to watch it again tonight, or should I say, tomorrow. Hmmm...trippy...isn't it?

Anyway, after my friend and I hung out, we went to work. We both work at the same place so it was pretty convenient. We got to the castle pretty early and just sat in the locker room with some other folks and I played music from my phone. Mostly "The Lonely Island" with hit classics such as "We Like Sportz" and "D*** in a Box". Yeah, great stuff. So after we had our juke box variety hour, we all got dressed and ready for another day at the castle. And it was pretty much a normal day except for the audio engineer got a bit confused during the ending of the show and things went a bit cooky. Other than that everything was good. So after work my sister picked me up and we made our way back to the house.

So then I got on the computer and got on myspace/facebook and I know it's sad but I went straight to Courtney's page to make sure everything was going alright. I kinda feel like she ripped me out of her life, but I hope I will be put back in and what I am thinking is completely false. I love and miss her dearly.

Anyway, so I haven't heard from my New Zealand friend today. I hope tomorrow will be even better than today, and the weekend will be terrible because I have to work a lot, so I have no idea what that will bring. Well, I hope everyone is doing alright themselves. Remember to check out my songs and such on http://www.ilike.com/artist/The+Matt+W.+Project

Peace
-Matt

Music to my ears.

I just love when I finally come up with a good idea for a song. Even if other people don't like it or whatever but I still have the pride of knowing I like it. That just feels nice for some reason. However, if you have doubts about your song and people say it's good despite your doubting it, it feels even better. I posted my new song today on http://www.myspace.com/themattwproject and I already had a compliment for it from my New Zealander friend, Amy. Even though I was doubting it's goodness, she seemed to like it. She could be lying, but I doubt it. See? I doubt stuff all the time, but sometimes I just need the reassurance, and somethings I don't, but either way, I'm probably just playing around and you can laugh with me. That made no sense. Whatever. Moving on, Today...

Well, I woke up at 11:59am. This actually made me a little bit upset. This is because, for the past year now, I haven't been able to sleep past noon, ever. Today I thought was going to be my day. I couldn't believe I missed it by one minute. ONE! Ugh. Oh well. I'll try again soon. But not tomorrow, I have to get up early and go work out. That means I get to ride the bus! Yay! I like public transportation. I don't know why, but I do. In other news, umm, I watched TV today, cleaned up my bathroom, cleaned up my room, and went to work. The day at work was pretty normal except it started raining suddenly, so people standing in line outside got wet so it was really funny for me to watch. Haha!

My friend TC and I after work went to Taco Bell and chilled there with his friend and ate some awesome food. It was really good. We talked about some stuff and this new video game he has and went back to my house and dropped me off here. And so then I got inside and started talking to Amy again, and still pointing out cultural differences and such. Like, in New Zealand, the McDonalds deliver to your house!! I thought that was freaky. And I also learned that Vegemite was indeed not a myth and I am going to order some and try it on a Toasted cheese sandwich. Of course, I still miss Courtney, but my new song that I made today and uploaded pretty much described that, so yeah, get to listening! Thanks.

Peace
-Matt